Lots of new Jackson photos

I'm really lazy. and hungover. but I finally have a chance to share a ton of the photos I've been taking since we've been home with all of you. So here you go.

Also, if you're on facebook & wanna add me feel free, just search Cassandra McGraw.

I'm gonna go lay back down now....

It's been awhile

There's so much to catch up on...

Did you watch LOST this week? I love it! I have tons of theories. I'm glad they are finally answering at least some questions this season. I almost had a heart attack from all of the suspense last year! I usually write a LOST dedicated post each week but since I have minimum access to internet, well I guess I will be sparing you. I wish I had had access to twitter for the premiere. If I had a blackberry like I wanted then I wouldn't have this problem, but noooo, I don't get my free upgrade until next month. ridiculous.

Jason keeps making plans to come down to GA to get our house and get everything moved in, but then the Navy keeps changing those plans for him. I know, surprise, surprise. It will be sometime in mid February and hopefully I'll get to see him for about a week. Then he'll get on a boat and I won't see him again until mid-April. supposedly. I don't know how long I will be here in Alabama. I definitely won't be able to handle it until April; I think I'll have to at least go down to GA for a little while until I get bored of being there with no husband and no friends or family.


I'm going to birmingham next week. I know I already told you that and it basically means nothing to you, but last Friday I found out that my best friend and world's biggest lush is going to be there and all I told him that we will be getting drunk and going to this sketchy dance bar called Bellbottoms that we used to LOVE going to, and I will be getting drunk enough to forget all of this responsible adulthood business. Just for one night, but still. I haven't been carefree for even one night in a year and a half and I think I deserve it.

It's Not Even My Wedding

My friend Ashley is getting married and is just now starting her wedding planning, so yesterday a couple of us girls got together to brainstorm. We read bridal magazines over lunch and then went and helped her pick out bridesmaids dresses and watched her try on some bridal gowns. It was a pretty fun day and gave me something to do that didn't involve sitting around Daleville.

But last night I had a dream, or nightmare rather, that I had a few times while I was doing my own wedding planning. It was one of those panicky dreams where I was trying to get to my wedding but everything was going wrong and I just couldn't get there in time. Actually last night I never got there at all. Why was I having this dream? It's not even my wedding! But apparently spending an afternoon in a bridal shop gives me nightmares.

If I wasn't already married, I would take this as a really bad sign.

Everything is better deep fried

I have tried sushi at least ten times and every time I have hated it. I can taste the seaweed and it just ruins it for me. But I keep trying it, I don't know why. Last night I finally had some sushi I like...it was deep fried. I didn't even know they did such a thing. Apparently frying it makes the seaweed taste disappear and it was so yummy.

Not much has been going on around here. Just hanging out, going to movies, shopping, etc. Jackson is LOVING all of the attention. and I finally got some Zaxby's! yea!

I haven't lost any more weight. It's pretty much impossible when everyone wants to go out to eat all the time. I think I've gone out to eat at least every other day while I've been home. Not good. Oh well, there really isn't much else to do here! I've been reading a lot too. It's a lot easier now that there are other people around to help with Jackson. I joined www.paperbackswap.com and have been getting a lot of books for super cheap. I love it.

I've planned a trip to Birmingham to see some old friends and I'm pretty excited about it. It will be my first time leaving Jackson for the night though. I hope I don't cry or anything embarrassing like that. He's starting sitting up really well. We put him in a real high chair at a restaurant the other day and I almost lost it. He's getting so big so fast. Before I had him I seriously thought babies just laid around for the first six months and didn't really do anything. Boy was I wrong. He is trying his hardest to crawl but he mostly just goes around in a circle. He's moving, just not forward!

Well that's a first

Sooo I got my very first speeding ticket a few days ago. In a way I’m kind of pissed off simply because it was 6:30 in the morning and there was absolutely no one on the road except that cop. And I would have seen the cop if it hadn’t been so foggy which apparently is not a good excuse because that is exactly why he said I should have been going slower and if he hadn’t been parked somewhere with his lights off looking all innocent. I drove all the way from VA to AL speeding my little ass off the whole way and didn’t get caught, but I get a ticket in freaking Daleville, where I’m from, from a cop that I don’t know (it’s a small town, what happened to knowing everyone?), while I’m staying with my Nanny so I have to tell my family (which of course makes me feel like I’m 16 instead of 25). But I know, karma right? All that speeding finally caught up with me I guess. I’m not really that upset about it, I just HATE to have to pay so much money and not get anything in return. And I didn’t even try to talk or flirt my way out of it. I’m just not that skilled. Plus I was wearing my PJ’s, hadn’t had a shower, had a screaming baby in the backseat, and had red puffy eyes from crying since Jason had just left and I knew I wouldn’t see him for two months. Not exactly my sexiest moment.

I guess we know what I'm spending my Christmas money on.

Love and Other Natural Disasters

A Review: Love and Other Natural Disasters by Holly Shumas

Eve is a happily married woman with a 5 year old son and a baby on the way, when one Thanksgiving her world comes crashing down around her as she finds out that her husband has been having an emotional affair. Her husband, Jonathon, spent a year exchanging phone calls and emails with another woman, sharing emotional intimacies with her but not physical ones. Eve feels betrayed but they both have to find out exactly what this means to their relationship, family, and basically their whole world.

I thought this book was incredibly interesting. I loved reading through Eve and Jon’s confusion, their reactions, and especially Eve’s thoughts. I felt like I could completely understand her decisions. I think we have all read books or watched movies about women who have been cheated on, but I’ve never seen anything about an emotional affair. I think a lot of people would say that if the other person didn’t have sex then they didn’t cheat on you, but I think it is a lot deeper than that. We don’t want our partners to feel closer and more in touch with another woman than they are with us. I’m not saying that men and women can’t just be friends, but it is the secrecy that makes it an affair I think. Because if you had a close friend, why would you hide that person from your significant other unless there was a reason to keep it a secret?

WW: Home so far

2009

We didn’t get to Alabama until the 30th, so this year New Year’s felt like Christmas. We opened presents at my In-laws’ house on New Year’s Eve and at my family’s house on New Year’s day. Jackson got more toys than any little boy could his age could ever possibly need of course. Jason and I got some really good gifts, but Jackson really racked up. I might have to take two trips to GA just to move all of his toys.

We were in bed by like 9 o clock on New Year’s Eve. This is the second year in a row that we didn’t quite make it until midnight. Makes me feel old, but damn. I was tired.

I made a New Year’s resolution this year to be a good mom. (Notice I didn’t say perfect or the best or anything like that). I think that’s something I can stick to.

Did you make a New Year’s Resolution this year? What is it? Are you still sticking to it?